Lately things have been really stressful at our house. It’s been good though, even throughout the stress.
Sparing you from most of the TMI, I’m experiencing that special visit that every girl gets once a month to remind them that they aren’t pregnant, which for me is pretty much a downer these days. However, I am blessed with a husband who, after a 12 hour work day, comes home to make sure I’m medicated and comfortable, tucking me in and even reading to me before I go to sleep. So, even with everything, I really can’t complain.
Speaking of which, Michael is working long days now that we are in the busy season full swing. I’m so, so proud of my sweet husband who works hard to support our little family. Granted, I do work as well, but he brings home the majority of the turkey bacon. However, this also means that until the weekend, we see little of each other and what we do see are very tired versions of ourselves.
My job has been morphing and transforming for the last 16 months, from one transition to another. I think I finally found a good spot now, but it will still require several weeks of catching up from the previous person. Also, I will be navigating some supervising roles as well. It’s new and different and ultimately stressful, but by itself, it’s a good stress.
Then, there are family issues on both sides of our family that we are trying to navigate as well. I think just in the past two or three years we have really experienced the meaning of adult children. It’s a weird and amazing relationship that is ever twisting and turning. The issues are not quick resolves either, or even things that we could possibly control. I do believe we are making this up as we go along, defining relationships and roles along the way, which is, to me, quite stressful.
Finally, there are some other parts of our lives that are also in transition or holding patterns. For a control freak like myself who wants to know exactly what to expect, I can honestly say that I have no idea what tomorrow will bring because it always seems to be a surprise to me. However, I know that I am growing and learning, and ultimately, that is what is important – to continue along this journey in life. I take rest in knowing that God is in control. There is definitely a peace in that.
Sometimes I don’t have it all together, and that’s okay. It’s not about having it all together, it’s about the process. I know that one day, all of this will make sense, and that I just need to trust that God’s plan will not fail. He will see me through anything, and be there with me every step of the way.